So the Olympics have ended.

I am no patriot but I think Singapore should have gotten at least a silver in ping pong.

Li Jiawei so rocked- that blasted Korean commie orgasmatron should have got nothing.
I hope they execute her back in Pyongyang for not winning the gold medal- no more squeeling commie bitch!
"she has done well but failed to win the gold for the Korean people" or something like that.

In any case I kind of enjoyed the pract crit today- and therein is the problem. I hope I dont jinx it.

But I guess the point was that God was with me in the paper. Went into the hall with knives in my throat- but oddly enough I didn't feel a thing in the exam although I coughed a coupla times. Oh well.

To those out there under the flu- sore throats, chest pains, stuffy noses etc etc- dont give up on prayer. If anything its the Master Physician Who heals the most effectively.


posted by baron at 2:18 AM

I am getting sick and tired of all this scholarship shit.
They bloody hit you right at the crucial point in the prelims and throw your whole revision into disarray.
Spent 8 hours out of the house going for their talks.
In that 8 hours I could have resuscitated MUGPLAN, but thanks to PSC's exceptional organizational brilliance I am left floundering.

Apparently they haven't got it into their heads to have these things after the exams.

Saw the synchronized swimming in Athens.

It's just like something out of Plath's "The Applicant"- Advanced Doll Model D2000 or something.
They all look really plastic in their loud swimwear, and boy are they unnerving when they do their thing.
Even the most well-drilled soldiers can't hope to match their precision and timing. By Golly.

The Canadian team was cool, the used the Matrix Revolutions soundtrack to accompany their piece.

Machine music for machine movement.

But don't get me wrong I found it highly enjoyable.


posted by baron at 4:31 AM

Everton 1, Arsenal 4
Arsenal 5, Middlesbrough 3
Arsenal 3, Blackburn 0

12 goals in 3 games, 43 matches unbeaten.

I don't believe it myself. This team is great.
And that's even without Sol Campbell or Viera!

BUT I hope they dont go screw themselves into complacency again.

There's too much bleeding history to bleeding study, I realize.


posted by baron at 4:13 AM

I'm fascinated by the concept of the warrior cadre- an elite within a fighting elite.
Everywhere in history and literature that I read I'm always on the lookout for such things- the Citadel Guard of Minas Tirith, the Imperial Sardaukar of the Padishah Emperor, the Republic of Korea's Capital Command, the US Army's Delta Force, etc etc

The idea of an elite fighting force, efficient in duty, all-conquering in battle, fanatical in devotion, with an intense sense of camaderie and outfitted with cutting edge weaponry and training- the very idea! These people are UBER cool.

Right thats not the main point.

It's 3 days to the Big Push. And I sit here and read about soccer transfers. Oh well.

"Arsenal are doing a fine job of defying logic on a variety of fronts. They don't have a transfer kitty to compare to Chelsea or United, continue to stave off bids for their star players with great success and still manage to batter down their rivals with a stick that shows no sign of cracking. Buying Arsenal could have been Mr Abramovich's quickest and cost effective route to the top. "
-soccernet.com

Those guys at soccernet are dead right. Arsenal are teh pro people.

Its the final breath of air before the dive. I must get those memories out of my mind and into His Hands- else I die.


posted by baron at 7:33 AM

And this sounds damn gay but I'm quite happy because my search for buying a new pencil case has successfully been concluded.

I feel like a club manager after getting a new player for the team.

Alright I will smash my right hand the next time it tries to access the blog- or the internet for that matter. Too much wasted time already.

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo


posted by baron at 9:35 AM

I am stricken by those fears once again- but I am intent on remaining unbowed.

Why must this be at a time such as this? Incredible how the past leeches onto you like some symbiotic parasite that cannot be removed without killing you- wrapped right into the very essence of you heart and mind and soul.

Some of my friends are in similar dismay. Its wierd but I feel pain when they come to me and share their hurt. And I welcome it. And I wish I could provide them as much comfort as they need.

But I find no comfort myself- not in anywhere, not even in Viera's decision to stay. Only in the Word do I gain some measure of reprieve- yet that grows ever lesser as I think back on all those times.

Them idiots out there make it seem so simple to give up the past. They obviously don't have the stuff in the head- or are just stuffed heads themselves. To forget the past is to be foolish, imbecilic, and for lack of a better word, stupid. To actively eject memories and past dreams- that is to be retarded. These are one's most cherished or hard-earned lessons and hopes- what kind of person if not a fool would give them up? I certainly won't, I am no fool.

But neither can I allow the past to slow me in my quest. Is it not foolish as well to be crippled by the unchangeable? We work to make up for our failings- no use crying over them. I will work, all right.

No matter what He will have His Way in me- and I will welcome it. In my sorrow I have no other option.


posted by baron at 9:14 AM

LET'S PARTY!!! PATRICK VIERA IS STAYING AT THE ARSENAL!!!

This is indeed the triumph of good over evil.

This is very good news indeed.

You hear that Chelski??? You aint gonna get nothing this season. NOTHING!

The Captain is staying.

Hail to the chief!

Well, my dear Zidane and co, at least you guys got yourselves a brand new striker.. *snigger snigger*


posted by baron at 5:26 AM

Excellent stuff- Manchester Untied 1, the Arsenal 3!

Reyes sure has a bright future.

But not so der Hauptmann- the once-stalwart Kapitan Viera is off to join the overpaid fat cats at the Bernabau.

I fear for the Gunners-with that big gaping hole in the midfield and leadership. I suppose Campbell will be the new captain- but noone is big enough to fill the No. 4 boots at Highbury. Bleeding hells.

I fear the worst.

Yet soccer is not the worst; the prels are even closer than ever to me. In fact like 2 inches. And here I still squander time on computers and such. My goodness me...

Well cheers to those done with the O Level orals, hope you guys don't dwell on whatever happened during that exam- the real stuff is right in front of you. Incoming!!!!!


posted by baron at 4:37 AM

My plan has crashed and burned and so I retreat to my blog seeking to escape reality.

Today is the 30th anniversary of the Watergate scandal.

Right whatever.

On National Day when everyone was singing the National anthem, I deliberately turned up the stereo to full volume and played the German National Anthem which I then sang at the top of my voice.

Hey I might as well do that since both are Nazi anthems anyway!

Deutschland, Deutschland Ubers Alles
Uber alles in der Welt!
Wenn est stets zu schutz und treuer,
brudderlich zusammenhalt!
Von der Maas bis an die Memel,
Von der etsch bis an den Belt!
Deutschland, Deutschland Ubers Alles
Uber alles in der Welt!

I read somewhere that this was the battle song sung by the Reichswehr as they charged into battle. Damn cool stuff.

Happy Nazional Day everyone- and remember- the PAP loves you. It's true...


posted by baron at 3:00 AM

I can't help but go online; its too tempting. Anyway here is a by-product of the recently initiated mugging plan.

Ambassador Adlai Stevenson: Well, let me say something to you, Mr Ambassador. We DO have the evidnece... it is clear and incontrovertible...Do you, Ambassador Zorin, deny that the USSR has placed and is placing missile sites in Cuba? Yes or no? Don't wait for the translation, yes or no?

Ambassador Valerian Zorin: I am not in an American courtroom, sir, and therefore I do not wish to answer a question which is put to me in a fashion in which a prosecuter puts questions.

Stevenson: You are in the courtroom of world opinion right now and you can answer yes or no. You have denied they exist, and I want to know whether I have understood you correctly.

Zorin: Continue with your statement. You will have your answer in due course.

Stevenson: I am prepared to wait for my answer until hell freezes over.


posted by baron at 7:07 AM

In my insecurity I have indiscriminately and irrationally hurt a dear friend today.

Well I still am not really mature it seems.

That person was generous and caring and above all, really special. But I still betrayed her all the same, being the callous prick I sometimes am.

So I guess I'm publicizing my sorry to you. You never used anyone and I was wrong in saying that.
You may ask why you should believe this and not the message that was here a few hours earlier, and I say that this is the more sincere one because it will stay here as long as the blog lasts.

I have learnt from my folly and will appreciate you more. I hope- no I believe- that our friendship is strong enough to overcome this, and that the love we have for each other in Christ is powerful enough to heal these wounds, even the deepest ones.

And I am happy for you, to see you serving with joy and pride- such things are indeed of rare value. May you remain happy, for the joy of the Lord will be your strength.

Well, I hope that hurt is laid to rest for good. As for myself this would be the last blog entry that I hope to make in a long, long time. I have no more time for computers and other things associated with a normal life- not anymore.

They draw ever nearer, inexorable, inevitable, unstoppable- and they must be met with all my strength.

Into the breach! For my Father the King.


posted by baron at 5:49 AM

Things are falling apart.

But the trend is clear enough. It is when one's relationship with God falls apart that everything will start to follow.

I must get to the bottom of this.


posted by baron at 2:28 AM